i am sad

Why am I sad?!


I am watching the MTV movie awards to watch the sneak preview of "New Moon"....i am obsessed.....and pathetics....grrrr

my tummy

I hate my tummy...and all the gastrointestinal parts that go with it.

I had the PLEASURE of an Endoscopy and a Sigmoidoscopy today...for all of oyu non-medical people, that would be cameras in both ends....NOT FUN!!!!!!!!!!

So, basically i was up all night anxious about the procedure, then got up at 5 am to do the prep and went to the hospital for 7 30.....needless to say,i am a bit tired.

And of course, what are the results? pretty much nothing i didnt know before....i have GERD, gastritis, duodenitis, proctitis - which basically means that my gastric system is irritated....no duh! The only new thing i learned is that i have a hiatal hernia, which is very common...which, frankly is almost comforting because i have been having chest pain for over a year and just thought it was anxiety and/or a heart problem i didnt want to know aobut...but surprise, its a hiatal hernia, which you can basically do nothing about...but at least im not dying or having major heart and/or panic attacks.....

and now my stomach is still hurting me this evening, even though i have been out of the procedure for 12 hours.....and i basically feel like im still at square one....blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

at least i have my loving hubby, who has taken good care of me all day :)

I RulE!

Why do I rule? Take a look at my Saturday project:

ok I realizse its upside down, but i dont have the patience to flip it right side up.

that is the GIANT half dead rose bush I took out of the side of my house, formally known as "the jungle " (and not the one with dead animals).....I took this out all by myself..I RULE....it took me 45 minutes, a minor leg wound, "vinyl" burn from falling and rubbing my leg against the side of the house, and a lot of sweat, but I popped that sucker out! Needless to say I was very very proud of myself....I personally HATE to garden and do yard work.....But since i am not a mom, i didnt really have a good excuse to sit on my butt this weekend, so I attacked the yard...MArco nd I have prett much neglected the outside of the house for the past 3 years because we hate outdoor work. We have a landscape guy coming in to do the front where we took out all of the bushes out, but decided to try and do something with the backyard outselves, because hopefully in 3-4 years we will have an addition going on and will have to re-do the landscaping in the backyard entirely.

It took my 2 hours to mow the lawn, because of the rain.....and then i moved onto the "jungle" portion on the side of the house...this is the finished product...

guilty pleasure

Guilty Pleasure #4 - Britney Spears
Yes, I am ashamed to type this...it was actually almost my guilty pleasure number 1, but i talked myslef out of admiting how much i like her and her music....but i've come around, because i dont think i am alone.
i have liked her since "oh baby baby" came out when i was in High school...there is just comething genious about shaking your ass in a slutty school girl outfit....yes, i realize that she has no musical talent whatsoever and as a person who is somewhat musical, i should hate her and admonish her for spreading her digitallymastered crap all over the airwaves and taking attendion away from REAL musicians/artist.......
but whatever....her songs are catchy, seductive and freakin' fun...there is nothing like singin "toxic" or "oops i did it again" at the top of you lungs.....when britney was crazy, i actually felt bad for her...I was rooting for her....the poor girl jsut needed some freakin' lithium!!!! Now i actually have recently downloaded "circus" "womenizer" and even "If you seak Amy" --which, by the way, is a shitty and genious song at the same time; however, i love it.....sad, sad, sad...i dont even LIKE club music- go figure!
So , that is my latest guilty pleasure....hopefully you all have some sort of respect left for me!